And rest from worldly strife.
Ever since Karmen left back in April Andrew and I have debated over whether or not we would do foster care anymore.
Her case was hard and I was overwhelmed.
When Baby Fever struck me this past month, it struck hard. And to make matters worse, it struck Andrew at the same time. So we decided to start trying to get pregnant.
I was excited about the idea of being pregnant for about a day before I just didn't feel right about it.
It's a feeling that I can't explain. Especially when I see how happy and excited my pregnant friends are. For some reason I just don't get the warm fuzzy's about the whole pregnancy thing.
Which lead me to tell Andrew that I don't want to try to conceive right now. He confirmed my feeling by telling me he felt the same thing.
When Karmen left we put our home in "hold" status with DFACS. We needed to pray and talk about fostering and adopting. We needed to evaluate whether or not Josie was ready or able to understand babies coming and going.
I had a hard time bonding with Karmen. I wasn't sure if it was because I knew she wasn't staying or because I didn't want to short change Josie or if I just wasn't a good foster mom. But after thinking about it for the past three months, I decided it was because we never made her a part of the family.
She never got a room set up. Her clothes stayed in boxes. We reminded everyone that she wasn't staying.
So our plan is to redo our guest room to be a guest room/nursery. We're getting a new bed with a trundle so that the crib will fit. I am emptying out the closets so they are ready for baby clothes. And whenever the next baby comes, we are going to live as if they are with us forever and treat them like they are a part of the family. Even if it's just for a little while.
Today we will call our caseworker and take our home off of hold. And then pray for strength for whatever comes next.
Little Julian is growing into such a sweet little man. I am so happy that Josie gets to grow up with him!
Happy Birthday Julian! We love you!
Saturday was Amber's baby shower for Olivia Kate! I can't believe she only has 8 weeks left!
I have known what I wanted to make her for two months but kept putting it off. I did manage to get it done in time and loved the way it all turned out!
Olivia Kate already has a TON of clothes so I decided to make something a little different.
I did a tutu with a skirt under it to protect her precious little soft baby skin and a onsie with her monogram on it.
I thought my monogram letters were hot pink so I was pretty sad when I found out they were white. You couldn't even see them.
Then Amy came over and she had some fabric markers so I colored them in with brown and I loved the way it turned out!
I forgot to take a picture of the finished onsie so this is as close as we're getting.
And I couldn't resist doing a Waffle House onsie like Josie's! It was a huge hit!
Have you ever seen so many gifts?!?!
Josie ate a ton of fondant:And Matalie dreamed of when she could eat it too!We love you Amber and can't wait to kiss Little Miss Olivia Kate!
She wears underwear all day long now and we only use diapers at nap time and nighttime now. And even then she's waking up dry, it's just I'm not willing to risk it yet! She love love loves wearing her "undies."
I went and bought diapers last week since we hadn't really officially gotten serious about potty training but it doesn't look like we'll be needing them.
I hadn't ventured out of the house with just undies until last week when I accidentally forgot to put a diaper on her when we went to Whole Foods, but she stayed dry and told me when she had to go potty so since then we have just gone diaperless!
And I already miss her diaper butt.
It feels so weird to hold her without one.
I know she did awesome potty training herself, and I knew the day was coming, but it still surprised me how sad it made me.
Just another reminder that they grow up so fast.
What was a hassle a week ago is now a fond memory that I'll carry with me.
I know we will have another baby someday and I will once again be cursing the price of diapers, but part of me wishes Little Josie would have sported the Diaper Butt look a little longer.
I was going to do a series of posts about potty training since I had such a hard time getting information on how to actually go about it, but she did it so fast that we didn't really end up using any tactics.
If we were going to be home all day, I just didn't put a diaper on her and would take her to the potty about every 20 minutes.
Sometimes I'd forget to ask and she would just tell me when she had to go.
I guess she's a Potty Prodigy.
Now to work on some counting skills!